I was doing really well, too…or at least, I gave the appearance of it. I’d regained enough equanimity to talk like a professional…and now I’m despondent enough to not really want to do anything.

but I managed to do a difficult thing today, even though I REALLY didn’t want to, and admitted that I might be making a bad decision, and figured out how to (maybe) turn it into a good one.

I went from drifting to crashing in about an hour this afternoon. too much time indoors, too much sugar or not enough. oh, and my little red friend. hurrah.