boo!

I actually dressed up for Halloween this year…as something other than a vampire, even!

those who know me IRL will already know that I own a very special set of vampire fangs. when I was in college, I had a friend (?! the notorious “evil” Grey…if you know the Jill Sobule song Good Person Inside, you know Grey) who learned how to make fangs out of dental cement — Raul traded him two sets of teeth for a dremel tool, which he needed to do the shaping. I still have mine, which I wore perhaps a little bit more than was truly necessary when I was in college. now: instant Halloween costume! (I love them because they look really real…)

but today I just happened to wake up in the mood to go all gypsy. I even found a little crystal ball in a box of odds & ends and set it up on my desk at work. 🙂

the funny thing, at least to me, is I realized that this outfit, or something rather like it, would’ve been a normal outfit for me in high school…that’s including the rather-too-much jewelry and scarf.

and on top of that…

XSLT should be considered harmful. to my brain, anyway. stupid crap. all I want to do is break a character-delimited element into separate elements. I could do that in 15 seconds in PHP, and god help me, I probably will. I’m just tired of spending hours and hours trying to figure out how to do some ridiculous stand-on-your-head-and-touch-your-left-knee-with-your-spleen kinds of maneuvers that XSLT seems to require.

okay. now I feel better. time to go make some dinner.

obliterate city?

I picked up a copy of SimCity 4 a couple of weeks ago, and have been having much fun…more fun than I’ve had with a video game in a long time. like losing hours of time kind of fun.

and yesterday C. finally discovered the addictive power of SimCity. whoa. potential urban planner and avid D&D world-builder, meet obsessively detailed but ultimately uncontrollable world. 😉

everyone is an accomplice

bq. *In wartime nearly everyone becomes an accomplice.* The huge dislocations, the millions who lose homes and property, are often compensated with the property of those that were forced out. Those who had their homes taken away from them in Srebrenica by the Bosnian Serbs were later given the homes of Serbs who fled the suburbs of Sarajevo. The moral destructiveness of ethnic cleansing, like the psychic wounds of war, thus reverberates throughout a society. Families who are stripped of all they own and then handed by the state apartments that were seized from others are complicitous, whether they like it or not, in the crimes of war.

bq. These dislocations, a large and usually deliberate part of modern warfare, destroy communal structures and weaken ties to those beyond the immediate ethnic group. They create, as Hannah Arendt pointed out, a population of stateless individuals, refugees within their own countries, who to survive must share in the loot of war. The policies of communist Russia revolved around such internal displacement. Political or moral dissent is silenced, since nearly all are forced to become accomplices. It is hard to condemn ethnic cleansing when you live in someone else’s home. (p. 106, emphases mine)

I’m reading War is a force that gives us meaning. that section resonated for me, and reminded me of a theme I need to return to in my novel. I’ve been focused on Aila’s romantic entanglements; I want to go back to this particular philosophical point…the question of culpability. she’s always been an outsider, in my mind, but she’s benefited from the forces she detests nonetheless, even from the weird unbelonging space that she inhabits: a “stateless individual.”

and Marcus…I think, whatever the deal is with his career, and what Viola does, and how Aila reacts to it, that his own innate feeling of being an accomplice in Aila’s fate, and Radla’s fate, and Reboa’s fate is what sends him into his final spiral. it’s not like he’s a kid, either.

(total aside…I find that I’m getting more depth out of this story as I get older. of course, one of these days I’m going to have to finish it, and move on to something new.)

which brings me back, in the context of the book, to what one actually does about it. Marcus…well, Marcus doesn’t do too great; I have some ideas about what Aila does, but nothing too clear. and that brings me to what I actually do about it in real life. sigh.

not that anybody except “Kat”:http://frantikgirl.blogspot.com has any freaking idea what the hell I’m talking about.

weird (work-related) question

I’ve been working with our print publications person to get a better process for the class bulletin. based on my own bootstrapping over the last couple of years, we’ve finally got something that sorta works…. we get a word document which has the correct styles already applied, then I convert to html, then xhtml, then a really ugly xml. then I make a nice xml file that can be imported into InDesign, or transformed into a complete Web site (don’t look at the current one; I’ll be working on something better on Monday). it all sounds much uglier than it turns out to be in practice.

here’s the weird part. I’m on Windows, she’s on Mac. when she imports, she gets an extra line in between every line of text (generally, it’s one line per element in the xml). that’s with line breaks in the xml; when I tried generating the xml with no line breaks at all, the whole thing smushes together, with only the first style applied.

what’s up with that? is it related to this problem? is there anything I can do about it? (short of either of us switching platforms…not an option in either direction.)

must be a family thing

I have three email messages in my inbox with the subject of “stuff” — all three are from one or the other of my two sisters. hm.

whew. again.

still running around like crazy, both work & home. want desperately to read blogs that I’m behind on, write on my book, and play SimCity 4 (god help me). need booklight for #2 on that list, now that it’s dark when I’m on the van in the morning. don’t know about the other two. 🙁

whew.

finished typing up all of what I’ve written, with the exception of some stuff in the journal before last, which I can’t find: 8554 words since Sept. 3.

forgot to do something today that I promised I would. grrr.

and, whoa, now the bookfest actually requires tickets. “$10.”:https://www.nwbookfest.org/purchase.asp then again, “Kage Baker”:http://www.nwbookfest.org/author_detail.asp?AuthorID=129 is going to be there, which would be cool. I dig her stuff.

oh, and I need to figure out what I’m doing the next few days. was going to stay over at Kat’s Sat. night, but we’ve got something else now; might want to stay over tomorrow night, but that’d mean taking whatever up to work tomorrow morning, when my brain is mostly just focused on the workshops I’m running tomorrow. (oh my goodness.)

whew. again.