in which I write about stuff
resisting writing my deepest darkest thoughts. I’ve become increasingly touchy about what I write in this space.
Monday is my birthday. woo-fucking-hoo. no plans – only just realized that I should do something. haircut tomorrow, tho I don’t know when. should call Kat & find out, then call Matt & see if he wants to come down & hang out. or something.
whither MeFi?
but I haven’t totally lost my energy – just finished a fleet of updates to zografis. I’m still waiting for access to diversity hair site. (gotta email that guy again.)
on an entirely different note… I’ve mentioned to a number of people that I found my natural sleep pattern, and that it isn’t compatible with my current working hours. now, mind you, it’s not radically different – just 11:30 pm – 8:30 am, or midnight to 9am. but I was surprised that a couple of people expressed…contempt? ridicule? – when I said that I wasn’t suited to be working at 7am. what’s with that? is our work ethic so important that it’s better to be sleep-deprived than to work non-standard hours? whatever. it was enough of an instructional experience for me that I will give up the good part – being in the office before most – to get better sleep.
one person who didn’t express that view seemed to think that I must be a night person because I’m a “techie” – I’m not really either a night person nor am I much of a real techie. (I know my limits as a nerd.) an interesting conversation followed from that.
so, in a self-questioning mode: why was it relatively easy for me to talk to the person in that situation, but not in those others? hmmm. in some ways, I do buy into that faux-pride work ethic thing.
my spirit is split between following my natural rhythms (when I can find them) and wanting to succeed on society’s terms (whatever those are). an important point: when I’m working hard, but paying attention to my body, I am most happy and most productive. something good to remember.
this morning filled the first 1/3 of the book with post-its. lots of work to do, now just trying to figure out where to start…probably with more faux writing, since the on slavery piece was so useful.
finally getting back to the diversity hair site. maybe this afternoon I’ll do a little work on zografis, too.