“Learning ancient Greek might be enough of a difficult pleasure.” -from today’s Breakfast Table @ Salon
I will refrain from commenting at this time. maybe later.
getting ready to take off
good lord. i got caught
what an insanely beautiful day.
what an insanely beautiful day. i went to seattle to hang out with kat & joe – we walked miles and miles and miles, through the arboretum, over the island, and across the bridge, to rent a canoe from the uw. herons, water lilies, baby ducks, and fighting the waves. i do want to write more, but i’m totally wiped out. gonna go take a shower & go to bed.
the php function I need
my brain is clicking along
my brain is clicking along this morning – I think I might get into the work order application before I take off for Seattle. it’s so beautiful out this morning…Sasha was jumping through the tall grass, trying to catch some bug or another. the repotted herbs look beautiful, green & lush in their new homes. perhaps next spring we will tear up a little corner next to the patio & plant more of a garden.
today started great, went all
it feels good to write
it feels good to write here again. I miss the day to day check-ins of weeks past…the squirrels and rabbits and poppies gone unmentioned, the strange twists of the spring weather. it reminds me of times in the past when i’ve lost touch with my writer self, that summer in college when I didn’t write for months on end. it’s like losing part of my own head, or a piece of my past.
time does keep spinning out, whether we want it to or not. one of the things that I’ve always hated about living hand to mouth is that I’m always looking anxiously towards the next payday, and so I don’t live in the moment as I’d like to.
and I live with less than I want, not enjoying my life as I want to. not that I’m always too certain about what I want, either. <sigh>
then again, my life is pretty fucking good.
- I have a good job, doing interesting work (for the most part)
- I live in a big, fairly comfortable rental house, with a sunny yard
- I have a smart, funny, sexy husband, 2 cute friendly cats, and several good friends
- I’m reasonably healthy
- I have a decent computer, a cheap connection to the internet, and I can create my own web site
- I’m still being creative and continuing with my writing
so yeah, it’s not too damn bad, is it? i have to remember, to think, to be aware of what my life is, and that it’s my life to enjoy.
maybe I should go for a walk & enjoy the last of the sunlight.
so I’m on my own,
so I’m on my own, at least until the 4th. Chad took off for eastern WA to visit Lance & go biking, as we’d agreed, altho a little sooner than I was expecting. he took the new wagon.
yes, the new wagon. it still feels a little unreal to me – both that we have a new car, and that I can afford one. I still wish we could’ve afforded a Volkswagen, but…oh well.
actually, this has been a pretty good week for new stuff. we finally bought those OXO pots & pans we saw that one time at Fred Meyer – on clearance! I set up our epersonae email accounts (thank you, Suzanne!), and I’m getting the hang of doing ODBC connections with PHP. (the extended learning intranet site is going to KICK ASS.)
but right now I’m feeling sort of sleepy and bored. I actually don’t know what to do with myself tonight. the house is messy, but I don’t feel like cleaning. I don’t really feel like being a sooper-geek and working into the evening, although if I got started on a project, I’d probably be working on it until the middle of the night. 🙂 I guess I could go out, but where the hell would I go? argh. I wish there was something fun to do in Lakewood.
I think I know what I want to do over the weekend, though:
- go to the Bead Festival!
- clean & do laundry. (woo-hoo.)
- rearrange the office-like space & get the computer into a slightly more ergonomic zone.
- clean up my hard drive…maybe reformat, if I feel masochistic.
- figure out whether I
- can afford, or
- want
a new processor – PIII, 600mhz or so, slot 1.
- send Matt my round robin.
- do some other writing.
- and do something fun with Kat.
Whew. sounds like it could be a very full weekend, even with it all to myself.
well, teaching Campus Capers (today
well, teaching Campus Capers (today was the first day) was a little easier than my brief volunteer stint at the BG Clubs. only 8 kids, and a closed door, really helps. although I’m totally amazed at how thoroughly the web has infiltrated their short lives. (they come into a web design class wanting to emulate the things they see on a regular basis, which I’m finding almost overwhelming.)