“But that was later, after

“But that was later, after I’d fully settled in, after I’d become accustomed to the ways of that place. That first season, after I had left the school and set up the tent outside Marcus’ house, was a season of adjustment.

“I came to the crater in the late summer, when the worst heat was on the wane, but before the heaviest rains began. So it was lovely weather to spend outside — for me, those cooling days were deeply tropical, and I think I would’ve been happy just lounging in the grass in the center of the crater.

“Marcus would have none of it, of course. He had made a promise to Superintendant Xersu, and he would fulfill it. Those first days were spent in the booth in his house, listening to the voice, watching the Imperian letters scroll down across the screen, being tested until I could speak, read, and write in that language as well as in my own. Actually, I have always written far better in Imperian than in my native Tanu, since writing was not expected to be a normal part of my life when I was a child, and was merely taught to me as a diversion and entertainment.

“And when the voice was satisfied, Marcus would test me, asking his own questions, cajoling me to write on his personal tablet. I think he must have been satisfied at the point when he began asking me to translate my language for him, to turn what I’d learned in Imperium into its closest Tanu equivalents. He never said, but even then I knew that I had learned his language much faster than he would ever learn mine. We practiced both languages, together, every day.

“I found these exercises challenging, but at the same time enjoyable for all the challenge, and even pleasurable. After a week or two, I looked forward to afternoons with him.

“This was not enough either. From language, we progressed to math, logic, the basic sciences, literature — where he was not familiar with a subject’s pedagogy, except from his own youth, but he gamely found modules he thought might be good for me. When I balked at higher math — I didn’t know anything more complex than simple addition and subtraction, and had only the slightest conception of the zero — he found another module, and another, and another, until finally something clicked in my mind, and I began to progress in that subject as well.

“Nor was I to be permitted to hide in his company alone, but once my education had progressed sufficiently, Marcus made arrangements with other scientists and technicians in the crater, and I spent many afternoons, once my studies were done, watching various people at their work or being given little meaningless or menial tasks.

“I did notice that I rarely returned to work or visit with the same people — this was part of my overall sense of my standing in the tiny society of the crater. The disdain of the children and dismay of the authorities had seeped through the rest of the people, and while most were cordial, or at worst distant, I never felt quite at home with any of the people.

“When this feeling grew to the point where I felt overwhelmed (by sadness, loneliness, frustration), I would beg and plead with Marcus to leave the outpost and go out into the jungle. Sometimes he came with me, but more often, he would allow me to go on my own, and use that time for his own work.

wow. that felt really good.

wow. that felt really good. now I remember what that’s like. alas, that is simply the overview. I don’t know quite where to drop that, either. at the beginning of the crater section? well, probably after the opening — as the introduction to the several years that she spends there, but after Marcus’ departure?

I’m wondering if it really makes sense to have him gone so much. or perhaps I should just rewrite that to include him: her bunk is in a tent, she spends time working with him (in addition to working with Joan, I think. that interaction needs to come up in order to seed what happens later!), etc.

okay, now it’s time to drag out the draft again.

“What was it like, living

“What was it like, living there? Most of the time, it was routine, so much so that I began to think of it as normal. I woke just after the sun slid down into the crater — a little later in winter, a little earlier in summer, folded Marcus’ bunk back into the wall, slipped into the cleaning cubicle, ate a little breakfast. I ran through lesson plans, the ‘le’ voice of the Imperium reciting facts, answering and asking questions. I talked back, recording my essays, then, later my journal entries. I stopped for lunch, an afternoon stroll around the compound or down into the jungle.

“I spent a little time with the few adults who welcomed my presence — Joan, Xersu, Alphonse. Joan was the only one who shared her work with me; the others merely chatted at me, as if I were a child who wouldn’t understand. Joan gave me real work to do, though later it occured to me that I’d done work normally given to machines. Nonetheless, she always welcomed me cheerfully, and I always enjoyed the time with her. (I did notice that her children didn’t visit her there, perhaps only because they were in school.)

“As dusk gathered along the top of the crater and darkness filled its hollows, I made my way back to Marcus’ dwelling, ate a little dinner, then either had the voice read me stories, wrote a little more in my journal, or went back outside. I often spent hours, well into the middle of the night, staring up into the stars. I never quite got over the changed sky, the different and moved constellations.

“More than once, Alphonse found me while on her rounds, but rarely ever managed to startle me.”

it’s really amazing how much

it’s really amazing how much of a change that makes, at this latitude anyway. I go from waking in darkness & walking to work @ dawn, then walking home @ dusk, to waking @ dawn & walking home well after sunset.