today’s word is:

ennui. I am vaguely wishing for some sort of scripting project, as it would occupy my brain and engage my mental faculties without requiring too much examination of the emotional depths.

this discovery of coding as a mental escape fascinates me, by the way. I wish I’d known about it when I was 20. I’m sure it’s not good for me, but I’m glad of the way it takes my mind off of myself…in distinct opposition to writing.

but, ew, I am being morbid. no more of that, thank you very much.