a good kind of tired

I spent the afternoon as a human chipper, stripping leaves from and cutting up aspen and apple limbs. still not entirely worked through the pile in the front yard, but enough to see the difference. I also helped transplant a juniper from the corner of the house (why do people plant junipers right up against the house like that?) out into the front yard.

I’m trying to get to a point where spending time outdoors is more of a pleasure than a source of stress. now I have a yard, and I have to do yardwork, and it’s stressful, annoying work. forests of aspen, an 80-foot crabapple, grass.

someday I want to have a garden – still hard work, but a source of joy. flowers, herbs, vegetables – things that I’ve chosen.